My Greatest Pain

Family

Today, July 15, 2018 where I currently am in the world, is my daughter Morgan’s first birthday. Her mother put together a celebration with friends full of fun, food and dinosaurs. I did not attend. It is the worst pain I have ever felt in my life. In my life I have broken both wrists (at the same time), had my front teeth knocked out by another person’s elbow and fallen down a hillside in Afghanistan. None of that pain even comes close to the feeling I felt today by having to watch the celebration via a FaceTime connection. As I was passed around the room talking to several people, the knot in my stomach grew tighter and tighter. I was missing a very amazing moment in my daughter’s life.

Now, being a Soldier in the Army was my choice. I volunteered. I knew this was a possible situation I would have to endure if I stayed in the Army. That does not make it easier. One thing being in the Army has helped me grow into is being a man who wants everything I do in life to be done well. That includes being a husband and father now. The downside to this, sometimes the Army needs to move me somewhere else in the world and not let my family come with me. I’ve been on a deployment away from my wife before. While that one was not easy, it was easier then because we were not parents yet. I knew my wife could take care of herself and was busy with triathlon races and traveling to help keep herself occupied while I was gone. This time though, we have Morgan, our greatest gift, who makes my separation tougher.

Each day when I get to talk to them via FaceTime I feel more and more guilty for being away. For not being there to help raise her, for not being able to give my wife the breaks she needs. For missing out on Daddy-Daughter time. I have to constantly remind myself that I am providing for them by doing this. I’m earning our comfortable home, our medical care, and the comforts we enjoy by being away on this deployment. Then I also tell myself that if I make a career of the Army, I’ll be done when Morgan is 10 years old. While that may require more separations over those next ten years, I’ll be able to be there for the teenage years when I have to scare away the boys who chase her and comfort her through her heartbreaks. I’ll be there for high school prom. I’ll be there for high school and college graduation. I’ll be there to walk her down the isle at her wedding. I’ll be there for so many more amazing moments in her life. While all of that will not take away the pain I feel by being gone now, I know that what I’m doing now will set our family up for a better future.

Happy Birthday Morgan! You are the greatest gift I have ever received. You are the most amazing little girl and bring me more happiness then you could ever know. I miss you dearly. Daddy loves you!

Fitness

Training this week is a bit lower volume due to some work requirements. Here’s how it went:

9 July 2018

Snatch Work

95×3 – 115×2 – 135×2 – 155 – 160 – 165 – 170

Hang Snatch Work

135 – 135 – 135×2 – 135×2 – 135×2 – 135×2

AMRAP 10

7 Thrusters

7 Pull-ups

7 Burpees

Score – 6 Rounds

Row Conditioning 

10 x 250m resting 1 minute between each

:50 – :54 – :55 – :54 – :55 – :55 – :55 – :54 – :55 – :53

10 July 2018

For Time

1000m Air bike

40 Air Squats

30 Abmat Situps

20 Alt. Dumbell Snatch 50#

10 Handstand Pushups

1000m Air bike

Time – 9:55

Partner WOD

10 Rds each – You Go, I Go format

10 Pushups

10 KBS 53#

10 Alt. Lunges

Time – 16:37

5RFT:

7 Deadlifts 225#

21 Calorie Air Bike

Time – 10:41

11 July 2018

5RFT:

500m Row

7 Shoulder to Overhead 135#

Time – 13:54

18 Minute EMOM

10 Calorie Bike

6 Power Cleans 135#

25 Double Unders

14 July 2018

Front Squat 

10×95 – 8×135 – 6×185 – 4×205 – 2×225

Team of 3

2RFT

75 Wallballs 20lb 10ft

1500m Row

75 Burpees

1500m Row

75 KBS 53#

1500m Row

75 Abmat Situps

1500m Row

Time – 58:30*

*One partner wanted a shorter row in round 2, so he went with 250m then 2 of 3 did not want to finish the last row so we stopped after the situps.

Row Time Trial

250m Max Effort

Time- 40.8 seconds

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